Subuh Arthamanggala. · he/him

Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

the flower buds never bloomed,
the end of season are screwed.

the paintings are still wet,
and the soft hue of sunrise peeking through the curtain.

all of the colors has been drained,
and all of the wilted flowers been replaced.

you closed the blind,
and hide behind those walls.

the name of the paintings never been spoken, nor been realised.

but all of the splatter stained,
leaving a trail of regrets of the painter.

- J, unspoken paintings.

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

​I cultivated a deliberate cataract of the soul,
blinding myself to the gravity pulling me toward your orbit.

In an act of frantic misdirection,
I projected every unspent devotion onto an innocent proxy,
pretending the heat belonged to him.

It is a fragile, elaborate defense:
worshipping a false shadow simply to avoid
confronting the void where I do not exist for you.

-J, a blinded shadow.

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

You drew the outline of a sanctuary called friendship,
and I built a home inside its rigid walls.
Then came an outsider’s paper confession,

met by your seamless, hollow claim of isolation.
In a single breath, you dismantled the architecture:
I am neither chosen nor remembered,

bound to a boundary that only exists to keep me out,
while leaving me suffocating in the wreckage of my own foolish restraint.


-J, Architecture of confusion.

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

2 of the infinity flowers series: blue hydrangea.

Bunga ini punya nama lain hortensia tau, sebenernya makna bunga ini banyak banget! Tapi karna kita bahas yang biru, mereka punya arti

Permohonan maaf dan ketulusan hati.

Fun fact nya ya : dulu, Hydrangea juga pernah disimbolkan sebagai rasa dingin atau ketidakpedulian. Hal ini berasal dari legenda kuno di mana seorang kaisar memberikan Hydrangea kepada wanita yang ia abaikan sebagai permintaan maaf. Tapi wanitanya kira dia diabaikan gtu loh

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

Gua sebenernya pajangan doang tapi ya.. me feat @Newyork and @druamericano

Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

1 of the infinity flowers series : white lily

Why white lily deh? Because white lily menggambarkan kemurnian dan kesucian hati, ketulusan niat, majestic and respect at the same time loh!

​"Cintaku/rasa kagumku padamu begitu murni dan tulus, tanpa ada maksud tersembunyi. Aku menghormatimu dan berharap yang terbaik untuk langkah barumu."

So, if someone or u wanna say something like this to someone u can gave them white lily bouquet ya temen temen!

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

What if gua bikin post soal bunga dan bahasanya nanti? Ada selipan narasi or poet yang terinspirasi dari bunga itu atau sekedar fun fact soal bunganya? Kira kira gimana?

Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

Heavy petals blush and bend,
Where quiet shadow-lines extend.

You walk above like hanging bloom,
Drifting through an open room.

Do I deserve to watch you grow,
Or breathe the air you leave below?

No hand outstretched to pull you near,
Just wondering how I ended here.


-J, the wilted peony.

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

One keeps a key he fears to turn,
The other holds a flame that burns.
One hides his heart in quiet shade,
Trapped in the doubts that he has made.

The other shines, a stunning view,
With sweet words never meant for two.

I stand between them, seeking space.

Do I belong in this quiet place,
Or reach for light I cannot hold,
And burn for dreams forever cold?


-J, a crumbling fortress.

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Subuh Arthamanggala. · @phenomenological · 1 minggu lalu

me and @druamericano rn. no shit sherlock, we have been talking like a carousel mf. still gua sayang lu kok frens. MONYET LU BRENGSEK